Monday, 30 December 2013

if there's one thing I am picking up from reddit zen and all the other zen arseholes and idiots on the web, it's that anything authentic like this blog is only building a "brand name" so to speak, that is then trashed and abused by the zen "sex club", and endless wrong minded nits and fuckwits

that

is

I am abandoning zen because of this issue and moving across to the ultimate reality blog

i'd appreciate it if all new comments are made there, this blog will be left as is !

Saturday, 14 December 2013

this is a complaint ! when I started zen, I was always following what i didn't understand and working something out, I never ever got caught up in this need to appear to know that everyone has, what i did get caught up in was wanting some sort of control or seniority in the zen system which fortunately was very far from happening.........!

if you have no honest sense of not knowing then what is the point ?

entertain yourself forever with wrong minded rubbish I guess, I don't have to put up with it, can close this board down or just leave it suspended

there is something to work out, but you don't read around enough, you don't think enough and you don't get enough solitude !

i am beginning to see the truth of this quote by emil cioran

" each of us must pay for the slightest attempted improvement he inflicts upon a universe created for indifference and stagnation, sooner or later, he will regret not having left it undisturbed ! "

martin Heidegger unrepentant !

Thursday, 12 December 2013

sepehr. g writes


Dark night of the soul
needles fly in the sky
drowning in purple rivers
coming upwards to see nothing


my


reply


white night in the hole

needles skewer the eye

i am the river in red

it colours my vision :o)(

Thursday, 7 November 2013

you should “grow out” of meditation within three years and preferably earlier !
wanna be a monk ?

that comment is beyond price ! :o)(

Monday, 23 September 2013

email to herb deer: I get a spammer rejection when I tried to reply to a post, I don't know whether that's intentional or not, but I always duplicate my replies/posts on my web page, so the reply is here

Sunday, 8 September 2013

the american version of zen is “married” , incompetent, deskilled, ignorant and proud of it and very very set in its ways , which is actually not what i think zen is about :o()

Friday, 21 June 2013




a zen master is someone trying to make a living out of what they don't understand and where there's no living : o ( )


Thursday, 30 May 2013

Friday, 17 May 2013



I notice that my reply to sepehr g's comment to the rilke post just below loses something being so cramped, so here is a link to it on the full web page !


Saturday, 13 April 2013



i always let understanding break down and let itself reform, it's the only way to see how things are !


Sunday, 6 January 2013

Tuesday, 1 January 2013



getting stuck into/calling joan tollifson's crap


while my replies last : o)


neo-advaita/zen it doesn't matter, flakes and fakes who can only sustain the illusion of their misguided self importance by banning and censoring, well if looking good is what's important to you, then that's what you get ................. :o)


well, well joan has actually asked to be left alone which is a major improvement on others, that's actually a considerable maturity, tho really quite sad, but menopause is not kind to women and i can see abit where she is coming from


why people fluff around preferring the illusory comfort my removal from their sphere gives i do not know, but one just sees it again and again as they rip themselves bloody dancing in the thorn bushes, but hey, so am i :-)


joan you are first person i have come across on the web to be honest about your personal boundaries and limitations (for your information brad warner and jeff foster were not honest at all)


when i look at my life and yours the flesh literally hangs from us with our guts ripped out, i think in respect of that and some basic honesty and skill in your approach i am going to honor your request to be left alone and please feel free to remove my posts, it is you i am talking to and not some imagined audience that i will benefit from : -)