this blog is the continuation of a genuine mystical tradition, unless you get in daily contemplative time and abstain to a significant degree from "entertainment" then you are just wasting your time and mine !
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last stupid question of the day..what separates dafonte from defonte?
dAfonte from dEfontecorrected
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'dafonte' being portuguese ? is very unfamiliar to me !
sorry i was unsure
Honestly, I think it is more cultural.I will never have kids, even if I were paid 500 million dollars or was in impeccable health. I am like a Sadegh Hedayat that survived.I am like a Sadegh Hedayat that survived.
An3drew, what's your opinion on the symbolists like Arthur Symons? They seem to share many similar views as you:Excerpt taken from here:http://jkalb.freeshell.org/more/symons.html"But if the substance of all these poems is woven on the same loom of dreams, there is still, as I have said, a profound change in their colour and texture as we proceed. Passing over the first book, from which only a few disconnected poems have been chosen, and these evidently written before the author had arrived at maturity of self-consciousness, we come to the collection entitled Silhouettes, which will probably appeal to the largest circle of readers although they can hardly be called the strongest specimens of Mr. Symons's work. Yet even these poems can never attain to any wide popularity, nor can they ever have much weight with practical intelligences that shun the evanescent world of revery where the real and the unreal meet and blend together in indistinguishable twilight. For this atmosphere is one of indulgent brooding; their warp and woof are of the stuff of dreams woven by a mind that turns from the actual issues of life as a naked body cowers from the wind. The world is seen through a haze of abstraction, glimmeringly, as a landscape looms misty and vague through the falling, fluttering veil of the rain. Indeed it is noteworthy, how many of the poems descriptive of nature or of the London streets are drenched with rains and blown by gusty winds:The wind is rising on the sea,The windy white foam-dancers leap;And the sea moans uneasily,And turns to sleep and cannot sleep. Ridge after rocky ridge upliftsWild hands, and hammers at the land,Scatters in liquid dust, and driftsTo death among the dusty sand. On the horizon's nearing line,Where the sky rests, a visible wall,Grey in the offing, I divineThe sails that fly before the squall."
This part is what caught my eye:"Yet even these poems can never attain to any wide popularity, nor can they ever have much weight with practical intelligences that shun the evanescent world of revery where the real and the unreal meet and blend together in indistinguishable twilight."It reminds me of your own poems. Very few people will be able to apprehend them...
it's a crazy world of nondefinitiveness !
I want my play to convey that, but I need the solitude.I agree with you. You are indeed the 7th zen patriarch."Even decay is a form of transformation into other living things, part of the great rampage of becoming that is also unbecoming. It is cruel, it is death, and it is also life, degeneration and regeneration, for nearly all things live by the death of other things.Rot suggests something decaying, but the process is as much about something growing, something digesting its immediate surroundings and preparing to disintegrate it into its larger environment."- Rebecca Solnit, The Faraway Nearby
Rebecca Solnit's quote and what you said about this crazy world world of nondefinitiveness, reminds me of this artwork:http://strangeremains.com/2015/03/06/the-beauty-of-decomposition-in-japanese-watercolor/The Symbolist artwork is also similar
"the evanescent world of revery where the real and the unreal meet and blend together in indistinguishable twilight"...wow...
bukowski wrote down a log of planes passing by his parents house. i thought about doing the same, glad we've shared some similar thoughts. maybe a big difference between bukowski and I is DOING and pretending. he spoke bad about pot in that video, but he's mentioned smoking several times throughout his novels. i'm still going to stop, my sleep has been returning to what it used to be which is waking up several times in one night. have been reading his novels in chronological order.. on page 200 of women now. i think they're slowly becoming worse and worse since i enjoyed the first one with it's very good imagery but women is not so great. still, i haven't laughed with a book in a while!
i've laughed with each book so far
You should start a blog Jason.I would follow it lol.You can do all sorts of things too like track all your stats. Like how much views you get and where your visitors are from...I can see why Andrew loves doing this.
i will, i'd like to put thoughts some where instead of your blog and andrew's.
Lately I've been looking through the bcd again. I didn't really give it much heed before, I knew I was gonna waste your time Andrew when I asked for your advice before. But due to some issues coming up I'm back at it again. I'm incredibly stubborn and lazy and I won't do anything unless I absolutely have to.But now my memory is worse so I'm doing this again... Taking the time to sort through everything... I think I'm gonna have to write notes pretty soon, maybe even write a book about it and later publish it. All profits will be kept by me. Just kidding, I won't do anything like that... I will write something though because I have to for reference and I will just keep it to myself.I'm thinking about writing more about this topic but I honestly feel like it would be spam. I will write it here once and if it's considered spam I will email you or something, if that's alright. Or who knows?Man do you recommend everyone to do the bcd approach? Like the enzymes. I'm not really sure If I need them, maybe they're just for people with bad guts. But I took some zyme prime one time before taking some magnesium taurate and I think I absorbed it more efficiently because I felt a more pronounced effect, with same dosage as before. Maybe it was placebo effect lol. I gotta try again. But hunting down the specific brand is hard. And Canada doesn't really stock that much so I have to order from the states, which isn't too bad I guess. Just takes a bit longer and have to pay some other fees.Also I didn't really take care of my containers with the dessicants and stuff. I'm gonna try some products that you don't mention but I'm also gonna compare the ingredients and container types such as capsule or pill form. I mostly have a question about the enzymes since you only recommend one company. Do all the others suck or you just haven't tried them?I feel like that person who used to post hardcore on the who knows board. I have a feeling that you will be burdened by this. I know how you are I think.Also why can't we get all this stuff from diet? Like eating wild game with all the organs/offal/whatever? Using the bones to make broths and stuff... The marrows of the animals. I remember they used to eat the marrows further up north when I was a kid.... and a few of my relatives used to eat the kidneys and stuff from fresh kills... well some still do, it was mainly the old folks who did this and they're all slowly dying. My extended family. Like my grandfather and all his brothers and sisters, his parents. I remember my great-grandmother. She lived to be in her late nineties. I can't remember anything she said because she strictly spoke Cree. I remember my grandma though. One time I was with her when she was filleting some fish, I saw a dark piece of organ, I'm not sure what it was. I offered to throw it away and she laughed and said it was the best part. I got embarrassed and didn't ask any questions after that. I don't really remember much about it, I was young like maybe 3-4. She passed away when I was 5, she was 54 I believe. My great grandmother passed away around 5 years after that.Most of the people around here are slowly losing that kind of diet and nutrition. There are hardly any hunters now. There's a few still yet still and they share meat sometimes but I'm interested in more than just that! Like the organs and thyroids maybe!One other thing is that we tend to use a lot of fluor and sugar and shit and make stuff like bannock.I remember growing up and not really holding much interest in this native indigenous indian whatever you want to call it culture.The self-sustaining skills.I wanted to escape from the bush and live in the cities.... My culture seemed archaic. But such a powerful thing it is... the skills it gives you...I feel like I'm going on and on, maybe I will write more later somewhere else for myself. I think I got way out of hand lol. There's so much to expand on though.
jon, last night i went out and shot some wallaby which are in plague proportions up here . . i use solid copper bullets so there's no lead in the carcass . . got to bed at 3am after gutting them, i honestly think i am the only person since the authentic aborigine culture died out a hundred and fifty years ago to cut out the brain and thyroids and collect the pancreas, kidneys and kidney fat, prostate and testicles, all lost knowledge . . !they sell wallaby meat in the supermarket, but it is incredibly tough and the least nutritious part of the animal, but people these days can't even bear to look at offal . . !actually you have to be careful hunting, i accidently left the safety catch off and tripped falling forward and the gun muzzle ploughed into the earth while i unintentionally pulled the trigger, dirt exploded everywhere, not making that mistake again d a n g e r o u s !foods like brains put you into a different space, no prion diseases in australia and new zealand tho . . you may not need enzymes or the full BCD, that brand (houston) are the only ones i have found that really work except for 'candex', you need to figure out if you have any degree of irritable bowel syndrome and intestinal yeast/microbiome problems what percentage genetically are you indian ? i know they have huge problems with their diet and metabolic syndrome/diabetes now, there's lots you can do for that !
Yeah I'm not too sure about percentage wise. It's quite a different mix with different people coming in at different times on both sides of my family. Honestly I didn't really know what I'd call myself growing up. I thought I was a pure bred haha. But as I grew up I started noticing some things. My mom once told me that her grandma once told her not to be ashamed of being a halfbreed... So I think that's the best we can do here lol. My dad's side is pretty similar too.And yeah my mom's side is pretty bad for diabetes. Actually I think both family sides are pretty fucked. I noticed my mom was getting bad in terms of responding to questions when I first noticed my own problems, when I first came to you asking for advice. I would ask her questions and she would kinda zone out. I was thinking holy shit she's getting bad but then recently I think I caught up to her and she noticed it too...And now we're here!
Like my grandma on my mom's side was pure bred indian I'm pretty sure.My grandma and great grandma on my mother's side weren't mother and daughter. My great grandma and her son who is my grandpa were halfbreds. My great grandma's dad was white and her mom was indian.Look it's such a complex system of breeding tbh lol and I don't know if you want to know all the details.
Have you heard of "A Tribe Called Red"? They're a Native Indian group from Canada.. I don't think they speak cree but it's for sure interesting. They call their style "powwow-step".
I've heard about them but I don't think I actually listened to them before
How do you have it in you to kill wallabies, An3drew?I could never do that and would rather die.
what exactly is your issue with hunting? the world is somehow better for having wallabies unkilled ?the whole human murderous travail is w h a t ?
Ask Zaroff from Connell's "The Most Dangerous Game" what's wrong about hunting humans and he'd say the same thing.I admit though, hunting wallabies is better than killing whales, dolphins, and elephants. Whales, dolphins, and elephants have more metacognition and are sapeint. They are capable of metarepresentation and probably have sophisticated mental lives to the level of humans. It is noticeable when we look at the complexity of the brain anatony too and draw cross comparisons with our brains.In that sense killing wallabies is "better" but it is still kinda horrifying.
sepehr, i only hunt for food or to cullhumans have killed each other and been glorified for it, it's called "war"
As long as you don't kill dolphins, elephants, greater apes, and whales, then it's fine. They are equivalent to humans in terms of metacognition, metarepresentation, and sapience. Basically, they have rich mental inner lives just as much as us. I do not condemn those who hunt other animals besides those I've listed. The evidence is too high for their intelligence. They existentially suffer just as much, if not more, than us.
Great apes (e.g., chimpanzees+orangutans), elephants, dolphins, whales, and corvids are established to possess a "theory of mind" (i.e., "the ability to attribute mental states — beliefs, intents, desires, pretending, knowledge, etc. — to oneself and others and to understand that others have beliefs, desires, intentions, and perspectives that are different from one's own"). It is highly probable that they suffer to a comparable level as us and communicate grief to one another. The evidence points strongly to this: http://www.quora.com/Which-animals-have-a-theory-of-mindJust don't kill or eat those animals and you are fine.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2526851/Blood-water-Graphic-pictures-shed-light-annual-whale-kill-Faroe-Islands-dating-400-years.htmlsome disturbing stuff. Made me depressed for a long time
I read a book about soil health/nutrition. It said something about all the soil nutrition wearing out from the land and it ends up in the oceans and the oceans have this constant source of nutrition wherever anything happens to live. Compared to the land and it's soil, which is very uneven in terms of soil composition and therefore animals living on land have a harder time obtaining their needs. Well I'm guessing this will mainly apply to us humans, domesticated animals and growing vegetables. I'm not sure how it'll work out for wild animals.Also the author states that if you obtain sea salt and put it through some process you can apply it to your garden and grow killer food, very nutrient dense stuff. He did a few studies with animals, I think one with cows where he put that sea salt solution in a certain area and the cows would always graze that area first.Here's the bookhttp://www.amazon.com/Sea-Energy-Agriculture-Maynard-Murray/dp/091131170X/ref=pd_sim_b_1?ie=UTF8&refRID=0FV3BV9RP3VQ3NCX0FQX
jon, herbivores are always short of salt, it's a common farming practice to put salt licks out for stock !
sepehr, i take it melissa bachman is not your sort of person ?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9hs_T4OyDA
If zen only.makes sense within the context of.celibacy, then can you explain bukowski?
jason, why not explore that question a bit yourself before asking ?
He mentions not being with a woman for four years around when he was 50. He was a virgin until he was 24. You said celibacy didn't mean not having sex, but not having relationship. I'm going to think about this more.You told me I'll never be enlightened. You said something similar , sort of, to zakaj. Do you mean it?
Of course there might be other times he just hasnt mentioned.I fucking hate suburbia by the way. I despise it. You havent written much about your living in suburbia, not that I've read any way. I'm pretty much banking on learning programming. I need to if I want to get out of here for good. I can always have some shit no experience needed job, but why put myself through that? Have you heard of programming work done solely through home? Companies involved with that?I'm going to make my own blog soon, maybe this week.
I speak too soon, as usual. Am reading "South of No North" and he says "I went for years with no women, I lived on peanut butter and stale bread and boiled potatoes."
i never asked to learn how to read or write. i just was placed in front of a computer in kindergarten and played games associated with words. the same can be done with programming, there are games online that teach programming as you play.i remember once driving through the hills in portugal with one of my cousins, she was playing a classical station and i was just listening. i ended up closed my eyes and thinking of the dog i had lost and i just started to cry endlessly. for a long time i could cry just thinking of her.
An3drew, you posted a cool video about angels from Judeo-Christian lore recently, or something of that like. It had poor animation but pretty interesting dialogue from a Judeo-Christina text. It was kind of cosmic, and I'm wondering if you can reference me to it. I lost the bookmark and want to check it out.
I'm trying to figure out where I'd move to. Colorado is seeming like a good choice, but a lot of people are moving there. What makes some where healthy to live? Why were you thinking New Mexico was the healthiest climate in the US?
I know you didn't say "healthy"
i personally do better in dry warm climates, i have very inefficient mitochrondria i guess ! ?