this blog is the continuation of a genuine mystical tradition, unless you get in daily contemplative time and abstain to a significant degree from "entertainment" then you are just wasting your time and mine !
I'm working on improving that. Like you said, there's just oscillation and stability, no "I". Cessation of matching what on thinks the externals are is easiest in solitude in natural scenery (preferably celibate) and/or Shikantaza.
I'm not going to comment as much anymore, just listen.
I had a dream of you. You weren't in the dream, but it was about you. The dream was that in the town I live, there was a message someone left for me, and I didn't see it until now. The message was dated "February", probably 2015. The message was in the form a writing with a thick black marker on a white paper, 1 meter x 1 meter in size... the paper was being dragged by the wind in the town. The message you left me started with my first name and last name and many exclamation marks. Like this: "JOHN DOE!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (except it was my real first and last name). And then the message began, but I don't remember anymore. I know it was something that brought me joy. A lot more happened in the dream that I can't make sense of. Anyway, perhaps it's superstitious of me but I decided to read what you posted on February to see if the dream told me I missed an important post... or maybe in dreams we're able to access something that is unavailable to the normal day-to-day consciousness.
yeah i have been surprised to have had dreams of real "spirtual" import, i had always thought they were necessarily random, but some have important meaning !
one time i decided to climb one of the hills in tassajara where they had their solar panels, you had to walk up past the highest cabins for a good 5 minutes or more until you reached the top. it was a good hike and some guy gave me a book written by adyashanti and told me to read a certain chapter, i read it near the top but it was pretty bologna. anyway at the top i walked around for a bit and eventually i came to this platform that was sort of hanging off the edge and on the platform was two of their military mattresses with two pillows and a blanket all messed up. at first i thought it was a good spot to watch the stars and i was thinking of going up there myself at night, but then i realized how many people were fucking up there and i got sick, it was one of the moments i realized that tassajara was full of shit
the other moment i realized tassajara wasn't what i was projecting it to be was the first time i got there and the woman leslie greeted us with a fake smile
i used to argue with kogen a bit on his blog, he was always trying to put a pile shit over and you can see this in the most most recent diary post i linked to, only now his health and concerns about his unborn child are not giving him the latitude to ignore the problems of tassajara . . .
i always used to wonder how someone could be so blind to themselves and what was really going on then i read he was in an "open relationship" with his wife, in other words they were both fucking around, i was really pissed because i could see i was just wasting my time, it was all one big con, just a cover for promiscuous sex and actually that's pretty much all zen and spirituality like "non-duality" had ever been about !
the real suckers are the people like me, celibate giving the time of day to these badly behaving shits !
"it was to establish himself on an equal footing to me and hence he was always arguing and just proving himself a waste of time"
ReplyDeleteBut... I'm cool. I really don't know anything and such, so I come to you for advice and learning, like a young person would to an elder.
You are remarkably intelligent, but I'm not sure I agree with EVERYTHING you say. I agree with the fundamental points though.
you don't understand the interior vision the viewpoints come from, you match what you think the externals are
Deletei am sure you have just skipped over what i said or already have a defense worked out . .
I'm working on improving that. Like you said, there's just oscillation and stability, no "I". Cessation of matching what on thinks the externals are is easiest in solitude in natural scenery (preferably celibate) and/or Shikantaza.
DeleteI'm not going to comment as much anymore, just listen.
I had a dream of you. You weren't in the dream, but it was about you. The dream was that in the town I live, there was a message someone left for me, and I didn't see it until now. The message was dated "February", probably 2015. The message was in the form a writing with a thick black marker on a white paper, 1 meter x 1 meter in size... the paper was being dragged by the wind in the town. The message you left me started with my first name and last name and many exclamation marks. Like this: "JOHN DOE!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (except it was my real first and last name). And then the message began, but I don't remember anymore. I know it was something that brought me joy. A lot more happened in the dream that I can't make sense of. Anyway, perhaps it's superstitious of me but I decided to read what you posted on February to see if the dream told me I missed an important post... or maybe in dreams we're able to access something that is unavailable to the normal day-to-day consciousness.
ReplyDeleteyeah i have been surprised to have had dreams of real "spirtual" import, i had always thought they were necessarily random, but some have important meaning !
DeleteI had an eerily similar dream the other day (though it had nothing to do with Andrew). Email me, and I'll send the description: dave@st.germa.in
Deleteone time i decided to climb one of the hills in tassajara where they had their solar panels, you had to walk up past the highest cabins for a good 5 minutes or more until you reached the top. it was a good hike and some guy gave me a book written by adyashanti and told me to read a certain chapter, i read it near the top but it was pretty bologna. anyway at the top i walked around for a bit and eventually i came to this platform that was sort of hanging off the edge and on the platform was two of their military mattresses with two pillows and a blanket all messed up. at first i thought it was a good spot to watch the stars and i was thinking of going up there myself at night, but then i realized how many people were fucking up there and i got sick, it was one of the moments i realized that tassajara was full of shit
ReplyDeletethe other moment i realized tassajara wasn't what i was projecting it to be was the first time i got there and the woman leslie greeted us with a fake smile
good post thanx !
Deletei used to argue with kogen a bit on his blog, he was always trying to put a pile shit over and you can see this in the most most recent diary post i linked to, only now his health and concerns about his unborn child are not giving him the latitude to ignore the problems of tassajara . . .
i always used to wonder how someone could be so blind to themselves and what was really going on
then i read he was in an "open relationship" with his wife, in other words they were both fucking around, i was really pissed because i could see i was just wasting my time, it was all one big con, just a cover for promiscuous sex and actually that's pretty much all zen and spirituality like "non-duality" had ever been about !
the real suckers are the people like me, celibate giving the time of day to these badly behaving shits !